threw my "I"s
Hi my name is Kat or at least my friends, my mom, my sibblings and my teachers call me that. Well the only thing that actually says my real name is my birth certificate and my "legal" papers. Well back to my story. I have moved all my life along with my Sister kyla and my bro. Djinn. i love them both to death. My mom is a differnt story! i love her all right but we have our difficulties. I call her BO, BOBO, skittles, and Nips. You'll never guess her real name: Rainbow!!! She was born on a hippy bus in a ghost town in Arizona. Her mom moved around and she got pregnant at 16 but she had me her oldest when she was 17! She went threw colloge with me and my little sister. At the end of her four year stay at her colloge she poped another one out my little brother. I grew up taking care of them along with a few other people. I would cook and my sister would clean. My Grandma died shortley after BO got out of colloge and she had taken to drinking. My Aunt (in wich i think of as a big sister) would help her and take care of us. My mom would go out ever night drinking. Until one day they got into an arguement and my aunt jasmyne left. I was only around the age of four.
This the time that actually remeber: My mom started to date guys again and she slowly stopped her drinking habit. The first guy i remeber was adam. I don't remeber where he came from or when exactualy he came into our lifes( i mean me and Kyla and Djinn)but i remeber him. It was right aroound easter some time when we met him. He had two other kids to Nicole and Luke! Nicole was older than me by a year and she was mean to me. Luke was kyla's age and he was quiet and shy just like her! BO,BO and adam didn't last long , like so many of BOBO's men he went crazy. I remeber one day they had a fight. He pushed her off the porch and kyla was behind my mom they both fell! the cops where called and we stayed with the across the street neighboors!
The next guy was Scot. He seemed all right to us he was funny and big and to kye(kyla's nick name) and I we thought he would be a good fatherly figure to djinn! We where wrong and after we had bought a house, had a dog, and went to a good school( i wa. in kindergarten) he dicides to start drinking but he was differnt then adam he wouldn't show us what he did to BO. He would take her in a room and all we would experience was the sounds! he was crazy so we moved. I would love to end scot right ther but when we moved to New Mexico, Scot followed and begged for BO back! As BOBO has allways been she accepted and he was fine for about three mothes then after his dog was shoot by a person up the road he started to drink agin so my mom moved.
We moved to Sante Fe with our cousins: Damian(kye's age), Siera(2 years young), and at that time Zach(baby?).We got drove up the wall ever day and i took care of the baby ALOT. We moved out of there and went to tuscon, AZ. We lived in Pink apartments and at this time still i was going to school with out kye or djinn. BOBO found her one true love Dave. We still say he was alright but we bearley got to see him. BOBO and DAve where always in the room. I found out later that they where doing drugs Mu mom ,BOBO, Was on speed and Meth. Soon my mom could handle us and she was ashamed and she put us with our grandparents. For a while i thought maybe she didn't love us but now this part is where her story turns into mine. Now i have my own emotions. I was 7. I met people i will never forget: Khrystine, monique, angel, and NOAH. Every single one of them where my bullies first> I dont blame them A family of three little white kids that had but haddent relized they have expeirenced the real world. After a while i gained some confidence in my self and i started to like noah.
******* Heres a litle background on NOAH He coes from a familly that has 5 boys he was badly teased and beaten on when he was growing up and in a mischievious town you have to be trouble to fit in and noah was best at that! ************
Noah liked me to but you know that a 7 year old's and a 6 year old's relationship wasn't seriuos at all even if they had experinced the real world and knew how to take care of themself's. He use me and didn't notice. Then we moved again and agian and agian . And I dont want to talk about my whole life :).
Well we moved in with reall old dude named phil i'l make a very long story that streches over four years into one sentence. He touched me and i still don't know if i wanted it or not :(.
well with me and noah we got closer and closer. We even had a fake wedding and (since i didn't know the word) kye was the pope.
We had begun something that would turn into love. I xame back one year from sumer vaction and actually had confidense in my self i was 11. I was going to Bond Mill Elementary school. Both kye and Djinn was in school to we lived in Laurel MD.
Soon BOBO found out about phill and we moved into a mad house. WE moved into The "T" house! All the kids names except ours began with a "T", and the mom was deaf. Oh God it was nuts DJinn got sent back to Arivaca At that time!We visited Arivaca again that summer and that summer noah asked me out. Of course i said yes. Every one had something to say about noah. I heard aton of rumors and im still hearing rumors!
I came back and had more confidence. BOBO had been in a depresion for almost a year then because she had lost Dave. It was heart breaking. We came back to luarel,MD and i had even more confidence! I was still teased any way!i met my first real best friend that year Desere' that was my 7th grade year. i had already had a boyfriend "J" but he soon moved to PA. that year was the first year i was popular! i loved desere'. Dezi taught me how to dance and hooked my up with at least three guys. But like BOBO on going record she found a guy his name was Thomas but we called him Paisley or Pais. He was alright for a good long time he didnt hit or drink often or treat mom bad. Altough he had some very bad habits! He would act very young and fight and yell with Djinn. I would most of the time be in the argument. BOBO and Pais became one thing and us stayed us. We had or own house and only a week after Pais came to see us on Christmas did he move in. We began not to like him. And then We went back to Arivaca for the summer. This time Noah asked me out and it was serious! and half way threw the summer he said " I LOVE YOU, KAT" and like most other girls this scared me. I had seen my mom, BOBO, get hurt by men my whole life> But naturely i said " i love you too" everytime i said that that summer i would whisper it!
I came back to laurel. Mom said were moving. I asked her where and she said the worse thing that at that time my ears could hear: Pensylvannia! I WAS MOVING TO A HICK STATE AND LEAVING MY FRIENDS OF FOUR YEARS(the longest time living in one state straight threw) BEHIND! I thought i would die but near november my mind changed " it would be fun to be "the new girl again"!
BOBO went back into drug druing that winter and came off them too! Me and MY sister went deeply into depresion and icut my self on several occasions even thought i'm afraid of razors! We went away for the summer, followed the DEAD, the remaining people from the Grateful Dead. this summer Noah had a girlfriend and i had sex with him and four other guys this summer, yet one i was really drunk and don't remeber it. BO says it was rape but i would never acuss that 16 kid of rape he was sweat. BOBO dumped Paisley and at the beginig of this school year we where taken into foster care. We got out but my mom had to go get our RV from AZ and they put us back in foster care! We where supposed to leave after a week but it lasted a month and four days FOR ME! I got kicked out of four houses in four weeks! My SIBILINGS ARE STILL IN A FOSTER HOME! they arent even in the same house. Kye is next to get out but djinn has anger problems and he is now on medications. Kye is very depressed and she only see me and My best friend and MY girfriend, anja(on ya) for 20 seconds each day. Djinn is about to kill someone!!!
I'm doing better though i have real friends and a very loving boyfriend ,steve, and his birthday is tommorow!!!and im only 14!!!!!!
****************************************LOVE TO HATE IT HATE TO LOVE IT********************************************************
This the time that actually remeber: My mom started to date guys again and she slowly stopped her drinking habit. The first guy i remeber was adam. I don't remeber where he came from or when exactualy he came into our lifes( i mean me and Kyla and Djinn)but i remeber him. It was right aroound easter some time when we met him. He had two other kids to Nicole and Luke! Nicole was older than me by a year and she was mean to me. Luke was kyla's age and he was quiet and shy just like her! BO,BO and adam didn't last long , like so many of BOBO's men he went crazy. I remeber one day they had a fight. He pushed her off the porch and kyla was behind my mom they both fell! the cops where called and we stayed with the across the street neighboors!
The next guy was Scot. He seemed all right to us he was funny and big and to kye(kyla's nick name) and I we thought he would be a good fatherly figure to djinn! We where wrong and after we had bought a house, had a dog, and went to a good school( i wa. in kindergarten) he dicides to start drinking but he was differnt then adam he wouldn't show us what he did to BO. He would take her in a room and all we would experience was the sounds! he was crazy so we moved. I would love to end scot right ther but when we moved to New Mexico, Scot followed and begged for BO back! As BOBO has allways been she accepted and he was fine for about three mothes then after his dog was shoot by a person up the road he started to drink agin so my mom moved.
We moved to Sante Fe with our cousins: Damian(kye's age), Siera(2 years young), and at that time Zach(baby?).We got drove up the wall ever day and i took care of the baby ALOT. We moved out of there and went to tuscon, AZ. We lived in Pink apartments and at this time still i was going to school with out kye or djinn. BOBO found her one true love Dave. We still say he was alright but we bearley got to see him. BOBO and DAve where always in the room. I found out later that they where doing drugs Mu mom ,BOBO, Was on speed and Meth. Soon my mom could handle us and she was ashamed and she put us with our grandparents. For a while i thought maybe she didn't love us but now this part is where her story turns into mine. Now i have my own emotions. I was 7. I met people i will never forget: Khrystine, monique, angel, and NOAH. Every single one of them where my bullies first> I dont blame them A family of three little white kids that had but haddent relized they have expeirenced the real world. After a while i gained some confidence in my self and i started to like noah.
******* Heres a litle background on NOAH He coes from a familly that has 5 boys he was badly teased and beaten on when he was growing up and in a mischievious town you have to be trouble to fit in and noah was best at that! ************
Noah liked me to but you know that a 7 year old's and a 6 year old's relationship wasn't seriuos at all even if they had experinced the real world and knew how to take care of themself's. He use me and didn't notice. Then we moved again and agian and agian . And I dont want to talk about my whole life :).
Well we moved in with reall old dude named phil i'l make a very long story that streches over four years into one sentence. He touched me and i still don't know if i wanted it or not :(.
well with me and noah we got closer and closer. We even had a fake wedding and (since i didn't know the word) kye was the pope.
We had begun something that would turn into love. I xame back one year from sumer vaction and actually had confidense in my self i was 11. I was going to Bond Mill Elementary school. Both kye and Djinn was in school to we lived in Laurel MD.
Soon BOBO found out about phill and we moved into a mad house. WE moved into The "T" house! All the kids names except ours began with a "T", and the mom was deaf. Oh God it was nuts DJinn got sent back to Arivaca At that time!We visited Arivaca again that summer and that summer noah asked me out. Of course i said yes. Every one had something to say about noah. I heard aton of rumors and im still hearing rumors!
I came back and had more confidence. BOBO had been in a depresion for almost a year then because she had lost Dave. It was heart breaking. We came back to luarel,MD and i had even more confidence! I was still teased any way!i met my first real best friend that year Desere' that was my 7th grade year. i had already had a boyfriend "J" but he soon moved to PA. that year was the first year i was popular! i loved desere'. Dezi taught me how to dance and hooked my up with at least three guys. But like BOBO on going record she found a guy his name was Thomas but we called him Paisley or Pais. He was alright for a good long time he didnt hit or drink often or treat mom bad. Altough he had some very bad habits! He would act very young and fight and yell with Djinn. I would most of the time be in the argument. BOBO and Pais became one thing and us stayed us. We had or own house and only a week after Pais came to see us on Christmas did he move in. We began not to like him. And then We went back to Arivaca for the summer. This time Noah asked me out and it was serious! and half way threw the summer he said " I LOVE YOU, KAT" and like most other girls this scared me. I had seen my mom, BOBO, get hurt by men my whole life> But naturely i said " i love you too" everytime i said that that summer i would whisper it!
I came back to laurel. Mom said were moving. I asked her where and she said the worse thing that at that time my ears could hear: Pensylvannia! I WAS MOVING TO A HICK STATE AND LEAVING MY FRIENDS OF FOUR YEARS(the longest time living in one state straight threw) BEHIND! I thought i would die but near november my mind changed " it would be fun to be "the new girl again"!
BOBO went back into drug druing that winter and came off them too! Me and MY sister went deeply into depresion and icut my self on several occasions even thought i'm afraid of razors! We went away for the summer, followed the DEAD, the remaining people from the Grateful Dead. this summer Noah had a girlfriend and i had sex with him and four other guys this summer, yet one i was really drunk and don't remeber it. BO says it was rape but i would never acuss that 16 kid of rape he was sweat. BOBO dumped Paisley and at the beginig of this school year we where taken into foster care. We got out but my mom had to go get our RV from AZ and they put us back in foster care! We where supposed to leave after a week but it lasted a month and four days FOR ME! I got kicked out of four houses in four weeks! My SIBILINGS ARE STILL IN A FOSTER HOME! they arent even in the same house. Kye is next to get out but djinn has anger problems and he is now on medications. Kye is very depressed and she only see me and My best friend and MY girfriend, anja(on ya) for 20 seconds each day. Djinn is about to kill someone!!!
I'm doing better though i have real friends and a very loving boyfriend ,steve, and his birthday is tommorow!!!and im only 14!!!!!!
****************************************LOVE TO HATE IT HATE TO LOVE IT********************************************************
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