Renisance Punk!!

hola.. well today was um.. nice... i had a nervous break down last night! I had afigth about skipping school yesterday and that i need to see my friends and steve everyday!! she flipped out nad started to yell. I love steve and when BO said fuck steve i flipped, i felt like my heart was splitting two ways!! i hated it and cried for hours.. last night and this mornin my eyes hurted. they don't hurt right now. Today i woke up made a necklace and did my makeup .... and those three things took me on hour. I waked out and went to moms room and bo wasn't there but nick was so we played video games.. on Gamecube. they were mariokart racing and scooby-doo... wow and then all of a sudden kye walked in (i had forgotten about her saterday visit today ) she is still here. she made breakfast and we all ate at the table for once.. wow! we went to the country junction and we went on rides and went hru two huantedd houses... wow yet again! we came home and now im sitting here typing away at y computer and everyone else in my family is in the next room watching the day after tommorow! kye goes home at 7:30!! i hate this right now because i know im in depresion and no one can tell. im hiding myself worse than ever before because i've been doing it for so long that people just dont notice it!!! the one time i showed it i OD on cough medicine a few days ago!! i hate this worse than being in a foster home and everyone expecting me to be in depersion but now the're expecting me to be extreimley happy yet im not im worse than before!!














i just wish i knew what was going on....... ilove you steve!!