Rappers

Today was not a good day at all! i woke up like normal, went to planned parent hood, good pills and condoms, and came back to school. It really sucked ass! i had to finish a paper that they just did, and Mrs. B was being a bicth! then i went to lunch, well cheerleaders suck erin and richie werent there, and anthony sucks balls! then i went to 4th expecting to go to the pep ( or prep as i called it all day!) rally, but they said i had detention and i went to the aditurim and i was going to call BO and make her complain but i fell asleep and when i left i felt as though i left somethin!! i knew i didn't though. i walked out side it was very cold! i was depressed all day, and i cried i never cry! i kept imagining my cut breaking open very widely! i kept thinking about my dad and how i don't and never will know him and then i thought about phill, i hate him and what he did but i don't blame him as much as i should and i knew that steve would not be at the bus stop but i wish would have been and at the point on the bus i wanted him to be there so very bad..... i just wanted to be with him for at least a few seconds, i still want to be with him or talk to him or something!!! god i don't feel good and tommorow were going to dorney park then a concerte im not going to like it unless i see steve!!



love you steve and please just show up spontaniously and just say hi too me !! (remeber you were my only hope!!